It is enough to break any man: watching what could have been my future slip away before it was ever in my grasp.

The possibility of losing someone I loved before she was even mine is something I never would have imagined. Certainly nothing I’d ever wish on anyone. I go to her every day and wait. Wait for the impossible, for a sign, for her to look at me…hoping that sinners are granted miracles, too.

Just one glimpse of him was all it took. In the next lane at a stoplight was the man I would fall in love with and marry. People talk about the kind of love that takes time, love you fall into. We were more like a crash and burn, and when our lives intertwined I would never be the same. He was the man I would cherish the rest of my life, who would father my children. In an instant our life together began, and in an instant it would end. The late nights; the excuses; the lies. And in the blink of an eye, it was like we never were.